Loss and Longing

Grant slid his hand under her top as they kissed and she shivered as he moved his fingers over her skin. She mimicked the move on his body and felt an answering tremor pass through him. The slow exploration went on and on, clothes were stripped off and discarded as they touched and discovered. Then when they were both naked and needy Grant rolled them off the low couch to the floor which was covered in a thick pile rug. He positioned himself over her and leaning up on his elbows, he looked down at her for a moment.

Stevie gazed into his eyes and was fascinated by how changed they were. As she looked into them now, she saw they had a soft touchable quality like teal velvet and she could see the desire in their depths. She reached up and touched his face, tracing the line of his lips. 

Grant lowered his head and as he kissed her and moved above her Stevie felt the world slip away until the only thing she was aware of was the man in her arms. 

Later lying next to him Stevie was thoughtful as she played with his hand. They hadn’t moved from the rug in the living room and lying naked next to him, she was amazed that she didn’t feel self-conscious at all.

“Everything okay?” he asked. 

Turning her head to look at him she smiled. “Perfect” she said.

“Are you always so quiet?” he asked returning her smile.

 “Sorry I was just thinking” she said, looking away again. “This is so unlike me. I normally hesitate and over think everything. As I said I don’t jump into anything, so I’ve surprised myself.”

“Why is that, do you think?”

“I don’t know” she said a slight frown wrinkling her forehead. “But with you, I didn’t feel the need to hold back. I don’t know why.”

He reached out and smoothed out the skin on her forehead with a gentle touch. “I’m glad” he said. Then leaning down to give her a quick kiss, he added “I haven’t been with anyone for a long time, so this is a bit out of the ordinary for me too.”

Rolling over to face him, she said “can I ask you something?” After what they’d just shared and her fast developing feelings for him, she felt the need to understand even a small part of him.

“Sure” he said.

“Why me?” she said “I mean you’ve just said you haven’t been in a relationship for a while, you don’t have many friends, you don’t have any family. I get the feeling you spend a lot of time alone, so why did you let me in?”

Grant’s eyes dropped away from hers.